Sometimes a conceptual inspiration for a musical work serves as the palette for creativity, motivates the materials towards a convincing representation of the idea. In rarer times, this initial spark of excitement alludes to the desire of seeking for a deeper explanation of the idea itself; perhaps through looking into its scientific, philosophical, or metaphysical existence.
In this instance, the original idea behind this work manifested itself from the notions of ‘push’ and ‘pull’, into one that enquires into the responses between give and take, will and force, expansion versus contraction, and above all, propagation versus consumption.
The role of the string quartet in the work is very much the heart to all that proceeds. It is tender, fragile, yet self-contained (and content) and behaving within its self-governing rules. As the piece progresses, this core gets extracted, borrowed and adapted by the outer ensemble; its ideas and behavior gradually propagates, infiltrates into the mass, giving the noise-based larger force the ‘nutrition’ to grow and develop through this process of infusion.
Many questions for myself arose during the composition of the work. Queries in the identification of ‘core’ and ‘outer’, self and others, persistence and willingness to change became apparent: how do I relate to outer influences, what is to resist and what is to accept? what happens when you let go and adopt the new? and how, do you let go?
Many questions lingers still after the double bar is crossed, and many more found their ways into my mind. Sometimes, perhaps, the only way for one to make sense of the world, the relationship between self and others, and with ourselves, is through writing it out, out of your system so you can see it clearly, laying it all out out in the open air to breathe, to take form, to be recognized, and to be understood.
Will upload the score soon.